My scar from the navel down

Tomorrow would have been 32 weeks. I feel like kicking and screaming and crying like a crazy person. I can't seem to get myself to do that though! Cry already man!!! 

Anyway...

I remember while pregnant preparing for a preterm birth. I had my hospital bag packed. Baby clothes and all. I had a feeling it would be February!!! Funny, that feeling was misguided. Every Thursday I grind my teeth and clench my fists when I realise it would have been a new week in my pregnancy. 

The 14th feb will be 2 months since my operation. My scar is horrible. Cut from my navel to my pubic bone. My doc says it's bad and will probably thicken. I'm on cortisone to heal it. He says it happens with some people and only if they know it will be a bad scar, they do something to prevent it. He said it costs R8000. Why didn't he tell me then!!! I told him for my body... I would have paid it. It's too late now. 

Another doctor was surprised to see my scar. He couldn't understand why he went vertically instead of on the same c section scar. He is an older man but even he asked "is your dr young or old?"  I said oldish. He just shook his head. He knew there is better methods probably. 

Now I will try to see how the scar heals over a few months and if it's still bad I will have to see a skin specialist or plastic surgeon. Let's see how it goes.