A Tribute to you son...

 

Today I said goodbye to you I couldn't say hello.
The love I felt inside my heart I guess you'll never know
I fought the fight I tried my best
But realized that God knows best 

 I seen your face, I touched your hand
But now you're in Gods promised land.
Your little smile I will never see
But God has come to set you free

 So I say farewell son, with all my love
One day we'll meet in Heaven above. ...

Cayde Christian
Born 14 December 2013
Died 14 December 2013

                                                                            Written 14th December 2014

Where do we go from here

Where have I been? I feel like a year has come and gone and I don't know where I was through that year. I know I was pregnant, and Im trying to piece my life during that time. Where have I been?

Although as trauma does, I cant remember some things. Although Im still trying to piece the puzzle, one thing I can say is that Jesus has been my refuge and strength. My fortress in my time of trouble.

I cant believe its been 4 months already since my son was taken from me. Today is my due date 10 April 2014. Its obviously a sad sad day. I'm happy that God has strengthened me beyond measure and I am still able to be a good wife, mother, sister, friend, motivator etc.

I feel as if as today is the due date, its more final. I have to decide where to go from here. All I know is that God will lead and he will restore what has been lost 100 fold. That is His promise.

Watch this space...

Renewed Faith

Hebrews 11.1

Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

I believe in a God of Impossibilities

 

 

THE TRUTH ABOUT C SECTIONS

C-Section Recovery

8 Postpartum C-Section Surprises Most Women Don't Talk About

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Having a C-section isn't something most women wish for, but it doesn't have to be a scary experience. Going into the procedure with some knowledge of what to expect helps mamas-to-be prepare for their postsurgery experience. We've rounded up some of the biggest surprises women face after leaving the operating room. Which did you experience?

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Catheterization

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Though new mamas are encouraged to get up and move as soon as possible, walking is a bit more complicated due to the catheter that is kept in for the first day.

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The Ridge

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Even years after giving birth, many mamas notice a slight bump in their skin above their C-section scar.

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Pitocin

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Many mamas are surprised that while in recovery, they are given pitocin to help contract the uterus postdelivery.

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First Bowel Movement

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Regardless of what people say, one is never prepared for the pain and fear that comes with that first postpartum bowel movement.

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Walking

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Considering that a C-section is major abdominal surgery, it's amazing that a woman can get out of bed and go for a short walk within hours of the procedure.

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Painful Sex

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Even if you haven't had a vaginal birth, postpartum sex can be painful due to the aftermath of surgery.

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Shaking

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In the immediate hours following surgery, as the body rids itself of the anesthesia and calms down from the procedure, many women find themselves shaking uncontrollably.

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Bleeding

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As with a vaginal delivery, C-section recipients bleed for several days or weeks following delivery.

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CELEBRATING BAPTISM

Baptism, a wondrous event shared by family & friends on the birth of your child and devoting him/her to the Lord. Yesterday was a my niece and nephews baptism. It was small and intimate. I held back the tears as much as I could. Its hard to think that we would have been celebrating 3 Baptisms yesterday 12 March 2014.

If only things had gone different. I guess time for what if is over. But for you ladies out there, read this blog properly and don't suffer the same fate.

For those who have had Placenta Previa, please share your story on here and lets help others out there

I remember my mom always saying to lazy pregnant woman: " Hey pregnancy is not a disease. I used to play hockey while I was pregnant and clean house." But now, I must tell you times have changed and different dangers come into play. Pregnancy is not easy and the fact that C-sections are punted over natural birth to suite doctors schedules is totally out of the question. Placenta Previa and Acreta is on the rise, since its main cause is C-sections(abdominal surgery), should something not be done to minimize C-sections. I have heard of Doctors who only do C-Sections!! They want too much to play God with our lives and they move on unscathed. Always subtly trying to convince us why a C-Section is vital. You ae always to thin, or too fat, or baby is too big etc. I heard of a tiny lady who gave birth just fine to a 4.8kg baby. Let it be my choice Doctor. I have a name, Im not a number next in the que

34 WEEKS

So smart phones are awesome these days. You can download pregnancy apps to guide you through. So today as I reach 34 weeks I get a reminder from My Pregnancy.

Fatigue has probably set in again, though maybe not with the same coma-like intensity of the first trimester.
Now's the time to slow down and save up your energy for labour day.

Well, today, without my son... how do I feel. I have fatigue... A lot of fatigue. A lot of sleepless nights and dark circles under my eyes. Today I have a lot of tears.

Slow down and save my energy for labour day? Well, today would have been my labour day. My Dr told me if we could push to 34 weeks, that would be great and we can do a C-section week 34. So since its week 34, and exactly on Thursdays when he does his C-sections, today I would have held my boy in my arms. I can almost feel him and see him in my minds eye. (Teary eyed)

I need a place to vent, to cry, to be supported, to talk to those who have been through what I have. Today I cant be the strong woman everyone knows me to be. Just for today, can I be a mourning mother for a son I lost? The Bible says blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted. Today I would have had a son. 27 Feb 2014.

I had a son...
I had a son but I will never see him smile
I had a son, but will never hear his voice
I had a son I can never sing "You are my Sunshine to"
I had a son I can never tell "Stop teasing your sisters"
I had a son, he can never put his face by mine and tell me wake up mom
I had a son who will never tell me he loves me
I had a son who will never, never know how much I love him

But... I had a son... I had a son
His name was Cayde

What is Placenta previa

According to the University of Rochester Medical Centre

http://www.urmc.rochester.edu/Encyclopedia/Content.aspx?ContentTypeID=90&ContentID=P02437

What is placenta previa?

Placenta previa is a condition in which the placenta is attached close to or covering the cervix (opening of the uterus). Placenta previa occurs in about one in every 200 live births. There are three types of placenta previa:

• Total placenta previa. The placenta completely covers the cervix.

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• Partial placenta previa. The placenta is partially over the cervix.

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• Marginal placenta previa. The placenta is near the edge of the cervix.

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What causes placenta previa?

The cause of placenta previa is unknown, but it is associated with certain conditions including the following:

• Women who have scarring of the uterine wall from previous pregnancies
• Women who have fibroids or other abnormalities of the uterus
• Women who have had previous uterine surgeries or cesarean deliveries
• Older mothers (over age 35)
• African-American or other minority race mothers
• Cigarette smoking
• Placenta previa in a previous pregnancy
• Being pregnant with a male fetus